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RAMPAMPAM...LOVE DOWN..

Im a girl like seriously,love has to be one of the topics I was gonna talk about,,,,,,,,,,,,sooner or later...but how about you keep reading...
I have used the word love since I was little..I told it to everyone around me and hearing it being said back made me smile,,,,gosh I was so innocent. So unaware of how bad such a good word could make you feel..
As time passed and things began to change I started substituting the word for things like,'like you a lot", "adore you","cherish you"...this must have happened coz I was a victim of saying the word to a stranger...in this case i mean someone outside the family.Top of that, I feel  like ive wasted the word on undeserving blokes,just coz he did such and such...
I can remeber vividly,,it was a rainy slow gloomy day when i could not hold it in anymore so I just said it to his face,,,well lets jus say that "kathing" is over and he and i don't talk anymore. I almost cried(note,almost) when i went back home that day and after days of grieving the demise of my first love,I decided never ever to use the word love again, until I was sure that "he" would say it too..I have failed miserably continuously over the years but i try,,i try..
So up until this day(sometimes)I wait for the dude to say it first
Defence mechanism?Issues?...Call it what you want but atlst now I get  to guard my heart and avoid that awkward moment from ever happening again...
If you're a dude and you waiting for a chica to say it first,,"utangoja",maybe she's like me, she has a gun somewhere in her head and the target "love"..
Don't get me wrong I BELIEVE IN LOVE.,I enjoy the feeling too but sometimes when it creeps up and the person you love has no clue or doesn't seem to care,,,,GO YEE INTO THE WILDERNESS,LAY OUT  ALL THOSE FEELINGS AND BANG!!BANG!!BANG!!

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  1. Anonymous1 December 2011 at 01:04

    i dont think there's many chaps out there waiting for her to say wrong. Girls if you want to say those three word to him he probably has a button in his head saying "Push button to eject in case of love #imjustsaying"

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  2. jaejay1 December 2011 at 04:54

    if she says it,hez gonna take off,,by the time a girl hooks up with you, she probably has already said it in her mind,,..hearing it is just scary for some dudes..

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