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These moments, moments we let pass by moments we let slip through our fingers. I have cried over such moments, loathed every moment I let pass by Such sweet ecstasy,these moments. I have tried to recapture these moments I have worked so hard  to replay some. These moments. These moments remain just that Moments. Moments I can only think about, Dream about. Fantasies,day dreams only but building castles in the air. These moments my dear, these moments. If I shut the door, then let it remain so, If I let these moments go, then my dear, with your love, give me some more, some more moments just like these. 

Nobody cared anymore what she did. Nobody cared at all. After all it had been only 6 months and by that time she had cleared the rugby team and rumours about her and the coach were probabaly true. .I think they were..ok so maybe I heard this from someone but invisible me can say anything and get away with it., I bumped into she the other day,,she seemed happy,her eyes were bright unlike mine ravaged with allergies.I hated my allergies,her smooth skin reminded me of  the many creams my dermatologist prescribed,,sad very sad i thought... She smelled so good, i bit my lower lip.  How did she do it?could she rilly be this perfect?I stalked her, i know.how else would I know what she did and did not ?  I was there, the drinking sprees, the trips, the latenight makeout sessions in some mansion.I was there, she was there, we were both there but somehow all the stories that came back were about how she did this and that. She made me do it,hate like this,I couldn't take ...

Im a girl like seriously,love has to be one of the topics I was gonna talk about,,,,,,,,,,,,sooner or later...but how about you keep reading... I have used the word love since I was little..I told it to everyone around me and hearing it being said back made me smile,,,,gosh I was so innocent. So unaware of how bad such a good word could make you feel.. As time passed and things began to change I started substituting the word for things like,'like you a lot", "adore you","cherish you"...this must have happened coz I was a victim of saying the word to a stranger...in this case i mean someone outside the family.Top of that, I feel  like ive wasted the word on undeserving blokes,just coz he did such and such... I can remeber vividly,,it was a rainy slow gloomy day when i could not hold it in anymore so I just said it to his face,,,well lets jus say that "kathing" is over and he and i don't talk anymore. I almost cried(note,almost) when i went b...

 MAYBE SOMETIMES GOOD MEETS EVIL A t 5 ft 1 she had some restrictions. It was the coffee jar that was too high up, it was that damn book in the library that the universe had conspired that she would read only after a few hops, she couldn't reach the candy bar for the kid in the mart and to top it all off,her hugs were only waist high.No laughing matter. It had never been an issue. Her height that is. Her own mother stood on a special stool to make her poetic presentations in school. So what was the big deal?Just some stupid genes..... She was well known for her acting always the daughter of the lead in a play.Th cute girl that was wooed by the prince from a far away land...bloody school plays! It was until the universe again decided to let her meet with her worst nightmare. An insecure bully that stood tall and was on her case like the chicken pox,,ok maybe just a rash. She hid, she ran,she tried giving gifts, she thought of dodging school but she was too chicken...cluc...

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When I examine myself and my methods of thought, I come to the conclusion that the gift of fantasy has meant more to me than any talent for abstract, positive thinking. Albert Einstein Its all in the mind.

The start of everything new is as exciting as sky diving.(well for the luck of a better activity in mind). An endeavour I have put on hold for the mere reason that I am dead scared of heights but hey, I will get through it with a bottle of jack and endless recitation of a mantra. Maybe something like "I will live to see another day"or something like " My husband is a doctor"..lol!! Its just like thoughts, we change how we think. Surely,if your thought patterns haven't changed since you started feeling shy around 'him'..You Have a problem!  So  the other day  I was joking with a pal saying how I am a caption writer. you know the kind. No? Well then, Im the type that thinks in short form statements.I see something and just like movies, a short statement at the bottom of the screen appears. It could be five words long.( It has never been longer)...  I know, I guess Homer Simpsons would say thats stupid and proceed on to ask his son Burt to laugh...